how

how is it only Tuesday? 

how did my whole world come crashing down in the matter of 6 months?

how am I supposed to jump start my health & happiness again?

how am I supposed to stay motivated?

how come I feel like everyone else around me is moving onward and upward and I am stuck in standstill or even worse - moving backward?

how was I the happiest I have ever been and then immediately the saddest I have ever been?

how do I feel better?

how come other women have living breathing babies so easily and I don't?

how do I stop being so scared it will happen again?